‘The human comedy doesn’t attract me enough. I am not entirely of this world….I am from elsewhere. And it is worth finding this elsewhere beyond the walls. But where is it?’(i)
The Big Why?
The pull of elsewhere has dominated my life. As a child, lying tucked up cosy and warm in bed, listening to the wind beyond our walls tearing the world apart, I used to luxuriate in the contrast between in here and out there – and wonder where the Power came from to cause the winds to rage, and the sea to beat endlessly against the coastline of my native island.
No doubt my wonder at the waxing and waning of the moon as she sailed the sky at night in her ever-changing rhythm, weaving her way amongst the stars shining in their mysterious patterns in the clear nights of winter, spun a thread deep in my mind and heart, much later to be woven into my passion for the ancient art of astrology.
My ‘real’ life in childhood – eating, sleeping, going to school – was incidental to my inner life which was full of the really interesting questions: why are we alive, where do we go after death, do we live on several planes of existence at once, what is happening in other galaxies, if there are x million Catholics and even more Buddhists and Hindus, how come they are all Wrong and Damned and a few thousand members of the Free Church of Scotland are Right and Saved?
These issues, fed by reading, preoccupied me for years.
It would take me a long time to understand and accept that my obsession with the big “Why?” , from the moment I opened my eyes to the world, is not the norm for most of humanity. Sensibly, they just want a quiet uncomplicated life.
Apart from my maternal grandfather, a loving and very broad-minded Christian – ‘remember, child: whatever our race, colour or creed we are all God’s children’– nobody knew what went on in my head and heart throughout my entire childhood.
There is no such thing as one biography of a life.
Your perspective changes with the passage of time and the way life’s inevitable challenges are dealt with. You rewrite your own history in your head all the time, mostly without realising it. For example, I never understood the full extent of elsewhere’s pull until my mid-life descent into and return from the Underworld, a period which lasted seven years – undoubtedly the most difficult and the richest time of my whole life. I feel in better relation now to that mysterious elsewhere than I have ever been !
To me, elsewhere is the vast wave of which everything – universe, cosmos, galaxies, planets, Earth, all life forms – is a droplet. We arise from elsewhere, and that is where we return. Call it the quantum vacuum, the Zero Point Field, God, Buddha, Krishna, the Ground of our being, the Source, the One, the Twelfth House: the name we give it does not matter.
I have also learned that elsewhere is not somewhere else. It is here, present, now, everywhere – always.
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Endnotes
(i) from Eugene Ionesco:quoted in Philip Yancey’s “Reaching for the Invisible God” p25)
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Astrology: Questions and Answers 
I remind myself all of the time…I am in this world (on this planet); I am not OF it. Sometimes it helps. This last couple of weeks…not quite so much! 🌎🌞
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Oh well, that’s Neptune transits, eclipses, Mercury retrograde, et cetera, for you!
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I knew they were all in there somewhere! 😉
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Thank you. What an excellent article. I could really relate.
Namaste’,
Dorothy
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Thanks for dropping by, Dorothy. So glad the article reached out to you! All good wishes Anne
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Thank you, Anne. Yes, those for-real Underworld passages are educational when it comes to the exploration of ‘elsewhere’. I recently finished a Progressed Moon through the 12th house journey (didn’t realize it until just at the end … that often happens, so I end up with a very much experiential understanding of it!) … definitely felt the ‘elsewhere’ initiation during that (2012 right into early 2017 … a fairly good patch of 12th house!). During the latter, I really did feel like ‘walker between the worlds’ … being ‘here’, where I am geographically, but very much ‘elsewhere’ too. Know what I mean? 🙂 Thanks again for the post; I appreciate it. xo Jamie
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Hi Jamie,
so good to hear from you and yes, I certainly do know what you mean, given my own 2001-8 12th house experience of total immersion of which the progressed Moon’s traverse was a major strand. And being a ‘walker between the worlds’ was exactly my experience. It is so good to share those deeps, and to be understood. Thank you. X Anne
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Natalie Constance: “There is no such thing as one biography of a life.” Beautiful.. I’m with you.
And definitely feeling the fuzzy, drawing in of energy today.
I can smell the ocean and wish I were on the beach.
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Thanks, Natalie. Most poetic…
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15.9.17:
Elspeth Cherry:
Yesyesyes, trying to reconcile what I learned to think of as ‘normal’ and what I really feel! Work in progress, but very NOW…
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Glad also to be a NOW work in progress, Elspeth!!
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15.9.17:
Jimanddeb Richardson:
Grey day, still,after the last vestige of the hurricane moved through Michigan.I don’t want to do anything.
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Hope you folks are ok! Doing nothing is allowed…
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15.9.17:
Sherrye Weinstein:
Yup, I’m feeling it too. I’m trying to shake it, but maybe I should allow it to take me wherever it goes.
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That’s probably the best policy, Sherrye…
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Dee Brady:
Same here, full of lurgy and thoughts.
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Welcome to the club, Dee! I suspect there are quite a few of us just now…
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Only somebody who really has experienced Neptune could write those words.The yearning to be in a magical realm where all is beauty and love and no time.Well it is there inside all of us but very few find it.I have been looking all my life and will continue to,but it is about dropping the veil of ego.Namaste
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Many thanks for this thoughtful feedback, David. Neptune does indeed draw us into the strangest of territories …
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There are many more interesting, very illustrative comments on this post over on my Facebook Page. If you are still feeling Neptunian – I know I am! – why not go over and have a browse.
https://www.facebook.com/Astrology-Questions-and-Answers-381046495339417/
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